Archive for March 2009
Long Time, No Blog
So, here I sit on the first day of my spring break, unable to simply walk away from the computer. Addicted? Oh, you bet. No doubt about it. Earlier today, I graded essays, so being unable to cut the umbilical cord seems more difficult that giving it a metaphoric snip-snip.
If only whoever accused me of walking away from my duties could see how much trouble I have walking away from my work, period. I’m constantly thinking about my classes, about my students, about what to teach, how to teach it, planning, plotting, wondering, analyzing. I do not walk away. I might not work on someone else’s specific timeline, but I always get my work done. Whoever wrote that about me never talked to me about it in person, never sought audience with me to discuss their concerns. Rather, they took the anonymous opportunity to accuse me of walking away from what is my life, basically. The accusation was about one particular aspect of my work, but still, they didn’t understand what I was doing, and rather than being constructive, decided to be destructive.
I told myself last year that I needn’t get so caught up in what my colleagues think of me, but it really does matter to me. Yet, they form these opinions without true knowledge, without primary research. The egos are amazing sometimes. Amazingly rude and destructive, that is.
I didn’t intend for this post to be a grousing about work, but it’s clear I needed to get that negativity out of my head.
Here’s hoping the rest of my break is a bit more unplugged.
Namaste … MJS
